i HATE it...

i HATE it when i fall asleep :-(
it makes me forget to do the things i need to finish at a given time.

i HATE it when my stomach feels full :-(
it hurts to see others eating a lot of meal than mine.

i HATE it when i try to concentrate :-(
it is frustrating to find myself doing nothing and just wasting my adorable time.

i HATE it when i like someone :-(
it is intoxicating to find my own self denying the unwanted feelings.

i HATE it when i feel blue :-(
it makes me feel really really deeply sad.

i HATE it when i think of someone :-(
it makes me realize that, that someone does not think of me the way i do.

i HATE it when i knew i am falling in love already :-(
it makes me feel helpless and not trusting, for i know that i might give my heart to someone who is not worth my tears and LOVE ;(

that awkward little thing called INSECURITY :-(

I so hate it when I feel insecure of others, not because of what they have, but for the reason that a person treats them the same special way that same person treats me. It's incredibly annoying. And I am annoyed of myself, for why would I even feel that way? I REALLY HATE IT!

For now, I will just not think of them, and talk to them, until that awkward feeling is already gone. I need to have a moment with myself. I wish it will work.

[The picture above is not mine]

MY BAD :-(

Lately, I got easily pissed-off with my little brother. I like him. Yes, I do. I even love him and care for him. But I find it really hard and very irritating whenever he goes into my room and asks me for help. Yes, it is my duty as a sister to help my brother in his needs, especially concerning his studies. But it is just so very sad that he is already in his fourth grade, yet he does not understand anything about his lessons. This made me compare my younger years to his generation. Back when I was young, no one had taught me at home, no tutors,, only me.myself.and I, was the teacher of my own. I learned things from school, my own experiences, viewpoints of others, and my own realizations. 

But when I look at him, he still think and act like a kindergarten student and it is so frustrating.. frustrating to the fact that he had gone a lot of remedial classes already, home tutors, and yet, he does not learn. he does not yearn to learn. I wonder how am I going to handle him. Every time, I taught him of his lessons, he looks like very attentive, and he would just say yes in everything that I ask him, and in the end, when I ask him again of the same questions, he cannot answer it correctly even if I am coaching him already. I HATE IT. I REALLY HATE IT. It makes me want to cry a lot because I am already pressured with so many things, had sleepless nights, and a lot of research to do, and then he adds up to that tiring little thing called PRESSURE. IT MAKES ME GO BOOOOOOM!

There... it really makes me awfully feel bad of myself, because I am not a good teacher. I am a very very very bad teacher. So SAD. MY BAD :-(

Is KILLING part of HUMAN NATURE?

Would you believe that it's in human nature to kill each other with or without reason?

YES. Killing is part of HUMAN NATURE. OUR LAWS allow and condone acts that may lead to KILLING. (i.e. When one kills in self defense or even in the defense of a stranger). Even God, at some point, instructed some people in the old testament to be victorious against those who persecuted the Israelite. (e.g. David's slaying of Goliath was, i am sure, with God's imprimatur.)

[Note: the answers above is NOT MINE. This is the answer of SOMEONE who is already WISE and OLD ENOUGH to ANSWER THIS QUESTION. Someone, all the IS Students knew and even liked. HAHAHA! I bow down to the WISDOM OF THIS PERSON.]

MY ANSWER:

NO. Killing is not part of HUMAN NATURE. Our laws may have defined it, our society might have labeled it, yet KILLING DOES NOT ENTAILS THAT WE INHERENTLY HAVE IT.

People may KILL with or without reasons FOR PROTECTION AND SURVIVAL, but it doesn't mean that in everyday of our lives we lived to be capable to kill people with our own hands. 

As humans, we are good, and at the same time we are evil. 

Killing is part of our decision. It is part of our choices to kill or not. BUT IT DOES NOT JUSTIFY THAT KILLING IS ABSOLUTELY PART OF OUR HUMAN NATURE FOR IT IS NOT.

We are still bounded with choices and divine intervention with God's grace. 

God may have allowed people to kill, but He does not support killing that is not morally right anymore. For, Killing without a reason and that is evil, means the person is under satanic influence.

That is why killing does not absolutely support that is part of human nature, for it is ONLY PART OF OUR CHOICE... to kill or not to kill. to kill for goodness. or to kill because of evil.

ONLY ONE ♥

"Only One"

[ Alex Band ]

My eyes are painted red
The canvas of my soul,
Slowly breaking down,again
Today I heard the news
The stories getting old
When will we see the end?
Of the days, we bleed for what we need
To forgive, forget, move on
Cause we've got

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us
Only One
Only One

The writting's on the wall
Those who came before
Left pictures frozen still, in time
You say you want it all
But whose side you fighting for?
I sit and wonder why
There are nights, we sleep, while others they weep
With regret, repent, be strong
Cause we've got

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us
Only One
Only One
Just you and I
Under one sky

One life to live
One love to give
One chance to keep from falling
One heart to break
One soul to take us
Not for sake us
Only One
Only One